Open Yourself Part 2

Open your heart to hear mine as I recite this rhyme. Darkness has filled the void missing as I haven't healed with time. Night after night, day after day memories of lost gone with the wind to my dismay. Why won't you come back, why can't I be with you? It should've been me it's not fair and no one has a clue! "It'll be okay...they're in a better place now", yea you're an expert that comforts me so much now. Being more negative has pushed me to be meaner, not caring about much and can't change my demeanor. I'll change on my own but why am I saying the word can't? I wake up every night in a cold sweat gasping for air with each pant. Don't want to go through the pain the struggle is too real, again why couldn't it be me. Dear lord, why haven't you taken my life?...because he believed I was doing something right. In his eyes I had the potential to find the light, make him proud to hold me in his hug so tight. So now I stay indifferent, in my own conscious limbo. Until I find a new outlet and motivation, that will bring me up and as a greater person tenfold.

Only When You Need Something.

So I only get a call when you need something. No hi, how's life how you been nothing. "Can I get a C-note? 20 bones? Something?" Talking about your stomach empty and haven't eaten nothing. What I look like a bank or a loan service? Answer this, if me or your drug man died who would you miss? I guess you don't care about debt huh? But if I ask for my shit I'm the dumb one. That's what I get should've learned about nice guys, still feeling sorry donating to some white lies. Oh the rent's getting paid don't worry 'bout it, I guess I didn't need that house I could do without it. Oh here comes the next place, you got the rent yo? I just gave you all my savings what you mean bro? Oh well I guess we don't have anywhere to live now, I don't know what to tell you man don't know what to do or how. Now that's a lesson for the nice guys in the world, being nice gets you inches rather than the miles you want. But gets the people that take advantage false pretenses and thoughts. Like they're really doing something or successful themselves but really you were the rock they stepped on to get where THEY wanted in wealth. But the point of this ramble is to teach to some few, that your pockets can stay selfish to the demands of the wrong few.